weight of the world

sometimes I just wonder ,how long will my head hold under the water that makes it hard to breath while I'm smothered,all the lies stabed in the back with knives,kinived,deprived,eaten alive,barely able to hold up long enough to survive,but I hide behind these eyes you see as blue as the skys,holding in emotion so you will never realize

I've been cold curupt of my emotion,enough,it's a bluff to stand tough,but you will never know whats up,deceived,what in the world can I believe,I laugh like it's a game,but smiles keep me sane,from loseing all things in my brain,thoughts go down the drain

it's like I pray and pray till I'm blue in the face,looking up high I need peace even if it's just a taste,I'm a good person,but I'm constantly hurting,my heart busrting for the life I'm deserveing,I get all in it trying to see through you but the walls tinted,you get it all twisted,I try to unravel it,I'm constantly battleing,you make a mess I try to clean it,but you rub it in my face so much that I'm forced to eat it,

I have problem decisions,why to I get in them,I just guess it's cause I care so damn much to keep it uplifting,I get away to just hurl,busting up bones just to hold the weight of the world,