Wasting Away

Drink, smoke, dance till dawn. 

The lights go low.  I'm in my own party world. 

Swinging around, eyes glazed over. 

I see the see all the faces of others, all laughing.

 Music loud, rhythms in my head. 

The room spins round and round, it moves with the beat of the atmosphere. 

Grab the wall, no time to stop.  Reach for my drink, it's almost gone. 

Take the last swallow.  Now it's all gone. 

Turn around, join the party once again. 

Moving all over, bodies touch, smell the heat, it's in the air.

 Look around, God it's hot.  Someone's hands reach out.

 They have a glass, it lands in my lap. 

I lift it to my lips; it's gone as fast as the last one I held. 

No more thinking, no time to figure it out where I am. 

All these faces, all these bodies. 

Someone grabs my arm, "Let's dance this one together" it pulls me to the floor. 

Moving with the other, bodies connect. 

So close, I can smell the alcohol, is it coming from me, or is it from the others. 

Touch me, any where.  I need to feel your touch on my body. 

Hands wonder, minds get lost.  My head spins, my legs go weak. 

Stumble, I can't hold myself up.  Hold me, just don't let me go. 

Air, I need air.  Looking around for a way out.  Doors, behind the crowd. 

Pushing past all the bodies, making my way to my freedom. 

Sliding the glass to the side, stepping out on the wood platform. 

The clean air fills my lungs, it taste so good.  Looking up, I see the star filled sky. 

To be so free, to shine as you will, shine so bright.  To be so free, to be yourself. 

They start to spin.  God when will this stop?

 Moving round and round, faster then before.  Grabbing the rail, leaning as far over. 

The ground seems to close.  I know what's next, it's far too familiar. 

I feel so wrong, so sick inside.  I close my eyes, waiting for what's to come. 

Another night, another party.  When is this life going to stop? 

When does this all end? 

Someone save me from this life, just stop me from what I've started to do. 

The doors open, the voices call out.  Back to that life once again. 

Head spinning, I walk back into what I've began to hate the most. 

Joining in once again.  In on all the games, the games we play in this life we live.  Grabbing another glass, hoping to drink these faces all away. 

Lighting up one more time, maybe they'll take me away. 

We waste it all away.  Letting it slip one sip at a time. 

Drinks, smoke, dance this life away.