I Don't Want to Die

clouded eyes incapable of focusing on anything
let golden bodies rot, decay in their living graves
blind obsession, my calling, tears me from the inside out
let the flames engulf your decorated world
to wash away and cleanse that fake world

guts wrenching, threatening to tear themselves apart
this is my pain, a cold collective punishment
to rend me from my life, claw and rip the remains out
bleeding, cancerous exile of happiness lend me the darkness tear away the bitter weakness we'll let it all bleed out

let the falling begin, cause devil wears an evil grin
just pull away my mindless self-deciet and live again

burning, this pain is too real
I can't take it, can't take it anymore
I'm going to rip out my heart, let the flames wash me away
dig in deep find a way to let myself go
I can't let the dangers inside me grow, consume me
left in despair I'll cradle my past, lifting high I'll take the one I can't begin to describe the pain within me

I'll cast it all away, give them nothing like they gave to me
corrosion of my mind, I'll get out, I'll get away, I'll find away to be me again
with this darkness floating within me, consuming, headless conviction I am bleeding can't live to see another day
lie within me, I need another way, this is the way I can't begin to consider lifeless approach taking me to another place where pain and hate live and breed I'll be fine

I'll be fine, all on my own, I'll be fine
just let me be alone, let the insanity take it's grip, let it rip me apart
I'll come through in the end, I'll rebuild myself, I'll take the time to learn this time exactly what I am
just let me go away
til the demons can't hurt me anymore
I'll be there in my skin, waiting to see what there is left in me
I will tear myself apart, begin anew
I will teach me that there is nothing left but me
that I am all I am, and all I will ever be
just let them forget me

until the burning screaming starts, I just want to be me again, tear down the walls and think for myself again
never let it get to me, so hard, made of stone I used to be but over time I eroded
just let the pain come out, I want it all away
I don't want to die
I don't want to die