Future from the past

Crawling along the floor
The cold drowns my sorrow
My body is tired and weak
I wish there was no tomorrow

I reach up to the sink
I feel the empty glass
Pills strewn on the tiles
"I can't breathe", I try to gasp

Breathless I collapse
Tears come rolling down 
Blood drips from my mouth
Red lips of a clown

The room starts to spin
I feel myself slipping
One more sip of liquid
My heart starts ripping

Shadows play my mind
I see shapes, none that make sense
I feel at peace with myself
I feel powerful, immense

Slowly I begin to go
No one cares anyway
Maybe they'll find me soon
By then I'll be away

No tomorrow I asked for
I got what I wanted
Like I never did
I just sat and bled

Bled from my wrist
Bled from my arm
Bled into nothing
Bled into calm

Sorry I'm gone,
I hated goodbyes
So here's one for you
Now you try.