What If I Died?

                                            What If I Died?

Today has finished, I lay my head down to sleep. Tired wounds, weary eyes. A Last tears falls and I collapse onto a bottomless dream.

You wake me up mom, you  begin to scream at me.
I Don’t budge, until you begin to realize I have life no more.
I make no movement; I make no sound.
You curse at me for dying and leaving you behind. 

How Would you remember me by?
 
Dad are you listening to me now?
Do you remember the fight we has last night.
Would you remember you never said goodbye?
Now that I died ... would it make you regret doing everything you did to me Dad?

Mom,
Would you fall down and cry, and remember how we used to fight?
When was the last time we said “I love you”
Would you remember the way I used to tell you I wanted to be with you.
I never told you mom, how I loved the way you smelled. 
How you left me and I would fall asleep on your pillows wishing they were you? 

And you…

Dear Brother,
Would you remember me? 
The way I used to fall and tell you I want to get out?
The way I called you to say I want you

Last night was the night I laid myself to cry.
How would you remember me By?

To you my dearest friend,
Are you reading this now?
How would you remember me by.
Do you still wish I would of left you and die?
I’m sorry I was never good enough, but to me you were the world

To those that once loved me,
Do you wish you would of told me how you really felt now?
Would you miss me, or was I just another useless crush buried in the past?

I wake up from my dream and realize I’m still here, but what if I died?

Today another day has finished, I lay my head down to sleep and realize..
What if I Died, would you hold my hand all the way as they take me away?