"CAN'T BELIEVE"

I can't believe I won't believe why are you doing this to me? You're making me choose between you and this dude please don't get mad, but I'm not choosing you. I know you raised me since Iwas a baby now I'm a beautiful young lady. I have this guy that stays on my mind and yes I think about all the time. I can't belive I don't belive why won't you let me be free? I came from good to being mean, Lord I can't wait till I turn 18. I put up with you for a very long time, now I'm going to tell you what is on my mind. I'm sick of him and I'm sick of you, I hate you all for what you all are putting me through. I don't believe I shouldn't Lord help me because my family is driving me crazy. I've been depressed and my room is a mess, but the excuse I have is called STRESS! Sometimes I won't eat, drink, or sleep because of what you all do to me. The guy you tried to keep away, he came back and he's here to stay. He makes me happy, he makes me smile, and overall his love drives me wild. Ican't believe I haven't believe that you would choose my sister over me. You both can leave, I don't care cause there will be less people in my hair. The past is the past and people talk fast and when people come to you last, and talk about the past,you're the one that puts me last. I won't believe don't belive shouldn't believe coun't believe I really just can't believe that you love him more than me. Now you don't believe won't believe that I'll never choose you, but always choose the dude. Can you believe?