I Couldn't Get It Back

My vision blurs and I automatically try to stable myself,

It doesn't work and I fall to the side,

My face frozen in fear,

No matter how drunk I had become, I was always able to stand,

I never once fell or got so drunk that I couldn't stand,

Those guys who rescued me were so nice,

They held me and cared for me when I was alone,

And then they left,

When I awoke I found them gone and so was my virginity,

They had stolen something sacred that I could never get back,

Not like a possession that you could use and throw away,

Just to buy another,

They stole something from me and I couldn't get it back,

My tlate nights and drunken testimonies stopped,

And I found my way back to the right path,

Seems like I had made a wrong turn at an isolated corner,

My lonely thoughts stopped soon enough,

And I was left alone with my self-disgusting thoughts,

I found a life was waiting for me in the open,

Sunlight poured onto my pale, pale face,

I had never really been in the open,

Fore everyone always judged so harshly,

I couldn't get back all the time in the dark,

Yet I could make the best of nothing,

Time to start collecting the pieces...