On the inside I'm weak!

I feel like I'm all alone.
In this world of billions.
I feel like no one notices me
When I'm right infront of them.
I feel like my heart is about to burst.
Any second now.
Everyone seems to be testing me.
Seeing how much pain I could take.
I don't think they know that my heart is bruising.
I wish they would now when to stop.
I want them to know that they're making it harder.
I want to think positive.
But that is close to impossible.
I never knew that life is this cruel.
I only have a few friends who i can count on.
Its almost christmas.
But this pain gets stronger each day.
My eyes are burning from all my tears.
But people never see them because they are indisguised.
People think I'm strong.
But on the inside I am weak.