Inaudible

I cannot speak- It doesn't sound clear.
I lose my words so you won't hear.
No explanation or rationale
Looking for answers that will not fail.
Aware that you won't understand
Just silence me and take my hand.
If only there were a way to express
this despair and frustration without any mess.
But I am not in that type of place,
I forget who I am-lost in blank space.
I really could scream- or cry possibly,
but unless you read minds, you still won't see.
I guess it doesn't all have to be great.
But its hard to be mellow when you can't wait.

~danyel koska