Hurting Helps

I want to hide, I want to die.
    I have to bleed, I have to cry.
I live to love, I love to hurt.
    I need sedation, I'm too alert.
Fix me_Break me_Cure my pain.    
    Just don't worry, I found the vein.
Slice it open, Bleed it dry.
    A favor, Please? Don't ask why!
I don't know, Don't really care.
    It's how I feel, my scar to bear.
It won't kill me, just feels as though
    It will make the sadness go.
Far away from my frail mind.
    It hurts to be the clock you wind.
Dull the sharpness in the light.
    Fade the sun away, give me night.
Deflating rage, Full of despair.
    Go now, It's my turn to not care.

*****I don't care, Never will
*****Go away, You make me ill
*****I don't care, Don't ask why
*****I don't want to see you cry.

~danyel koska