i'll cry inside

Inside my head I see my fears, All alone for many years.
I'll wait and hope and pray and wish, but somehow I think nothing can change this.
My stomach hurts and my head is heavy. My heart feels burdened and my tears run steady.
I'm such a screwup, such a fake... and deep inside I'll mourn with ache.
Everything I've ever loved, all the things which meant so much
it all seems to break, anything I touch.
I can ruin the happiest of moments and turn the saddest sadder
I can make you feel so good, but I can also make things shatter.
I do not do it out of anger or spite or hate
I'm not a predator inside my heart where sitting I will wait.
I wish you no harm and to NO end,
I do hope you'll find it in you to forgive me for this sin.
I'll wait and hope and pray and wish, but still some how, I doubt I can fix this.

With love and anger and fear in my heart,
All that matters will fall apart.
I'll cry for you everyday of my life,
the pain will cut me like a knife.
I'll bleed from wounds that hurt so deep,
And silently yet, only my heart will weep.
I may never tell you how bad I feel
Instead I may seem cold as steel.
That love which burned my heart each night,
The pain I felt, tho we did not fight.
The hole that I carry deep inside
Forever my love, from you I'll hide.


Danyel Koska