If Only...

I try to put it away
Deep inside my heart
That this game I can't play
It's what you consider art

See, you look at those...
Other girls
Because of their mini-skirts
And their skin-tight shirts

But look at me
With the pale blue jeans
And the khaki colored shirt
Look at all this hurt

Now what do they have
That I don't
Is it their hair, clothes
Or what they expose

If only, somehow
I could prove to you
That you don't love me
But I love you

How could I be so...
Stupid, dumb, foolish
To even get with you
Now it's time, that I let out the truth

I won't hold it in
No, not anymore
I don't care what you think
But how you think of me, once more

Then I'll know,
If you truly love me
Or what those other guys call...
A Hottie

If you find out
That I'll do this
You'll laugh full of glee
But I'll laugh to myself
I know it's true

If only...