No Strength

I don’t have the strength to go out and say what I have to you
I only wish that you will call me on this so I can come out and say it all
That you are horrible, and not to mention one of the most deceitful people I know
And that after breaking me down so much that you must feel real tall
How I hate that everyone around me is just as mean as you are
They all make me wanna cry and just runaway from here
They all will have fun when I am not around with them
But they seem so angry and they like to just snicker when I am near
How do I go about getting this across to you without confrontation and threatening
How do I spill my feelings without dispelling my friends and losing the people I want to stay
 I love a few of them like my dearest friends. And some one else not mentioned
But I can’t figure out if its you I wish for or hate at the end of the day.
 How is it that you can speak to me at the beginning and at the end you can grind me into oblivion
Drowned me in lies, imperfections, and the fake
It then becomes a part of me and I act this out towards others
It becomes my soul it infects then my life to take