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As colors change
the mind does too..
who's to know..
who's killing you
the words come out..
red whispers..black shout
i know me..and
what not to be
i know the hurt
& with its eyes i see
everything else in color
everything in hues but me
i see.
i see
this world
this girl
this life
in swirl
this skin
this vice
the hate
it's nice
it cuts
a part
my heart
i feel
the joy
from love's one way lanes 
from my veins
i slash, i steal..
i take
my stake
my fear i make
from a backward spin
& to know how to lose
is all i know how to
win