Did I??

Walking throught that open door,

seeing all the broken glass,

reminds me of what i did to you,

shows me my true past.

Was i really that bad,

am i still today?

Fear for wat i did to you,

makes me want to run away.

Regreting all the things i've done,

wanting it all to change,

wishing how you treated me,

and how i treated you was the same.

I have grown some now,

and i look back too see,

you neve did anything wrong,

no; never; not to me,

The pain i feal inside for this,

is worse then you could imagine,

my head fills with the memories of me being pissed,

did that really happen?

The words i said,

the anger i still carry.

Why did i do this to you,

why did i say such horrid things??

I'm lost,

i'm confused,

i have nowhere else to go.

I'll stand here with this loaded gun,

wanting to take the pain away.

I will take this monster out of this world,

and make you wish you said these few words.

I loved you then,

i love you now,

and i will love you untill the sun faids away.

I never really wanted to hurt you,

and hurting myself didn't work anymore.

If this rope around my neck is true,

It will stop me suddenly befor i hit the floor.

It is true this world is not for me,

so stop my heart and let me fly free.