you amaze me.

you amaze me more than anyone else ever has.spending time with you is what i  want to do.as much as possible.when i am at work and you are at school,i lose my mind counting down the minutes until i et to talk to you again.ive been thinking allot lately when i am away,from you. i have let you into my life so much, easily and quickly to if i might add.and i have trusted you so fast.but i am glad i wouldn't change it for the world.trust is something i have a hard time with.and yet...i haven't with you.
im still scared about saying this but,its completely true.i want a future with you.now,perhaps is inti rely to soon, to say that and mean it but i dont believe i am blinded by infatuation either.or lust. all i know is: it is much more than that.we've already talked about having a family together and i do that with no body.but it came so easily for me and you to do so. i couldn't even begin to fathom, feeling so strongly or sure about anyone else in my life, and that there is one girl,the one that proves every girl is not the same,i strongly believe that your that girl for me. actuall i know you are. when ever i told my best friend in the whole world, told me that you were the one for me, i had to refrain from crying in happiness.it means so much to me to know that you feel the same way.i never ever want this to end.
i worry about losing you so much to the point that i dont sleep.i dont feel like i ever will, but ittl always worry me.i do know that if something happened to us. and we didn't work out, i would never want to lose you you Are far more important to me id never want you to hate me, and id neer want to hate you either. it would be impossible.
theres so much i want to say to you, but i cant. i cant find the words, and if i did,its never the right ones,or ones i could say.ive never needed someone so much, its hard to admit,i know its hard to say but i need you in order to survive.were so much alike, your nature is the same as mine.you don't get mad or my excessive, amounts of apologies, which we both know i have been doing a lot lately... we are both aware of me doing harm to myself..you support me and my goals.i believe you when you say im Gourgeous i believe you when you say i will amount to something, something meaningful,i trust you 100%
and its new for me.you've given me confidence in myself many have tried all have failed except you  im not sure what is, but i have never gotten a bad vibe from you...and i know i never will...your something special.something that  cant be put into words.
i am glad i can call you mine.
ive opened up completely to you heart and soul,it may not look like it, but i have there is still a lot more i need to tell you, things about my past, actions ive done people ive hurt.
and emotions towards you..i don't want, any secrets i want yu to know it all.. not only do i want to share it all with you..i want to listen to you. anything and everything that you have to share. the world offers, so many things, people can either make the most of it, or throw it all away as long as your by my side ill have the world at my finger tips.i want to expierence so much with you,
i want you to be in my life.forever.this will never change.
yes i am aware you prolly know this but i feel the need to write this to you.