That Night

The sirens roar...the parents cry..

I sit in the graveyard,trying to hide.

Hiding from sorrow..hiding from pain..

Holding my hands to my ears as I scream..

They don't know what they're doing to me.

Confusing my mind,killing my soul

Destroying my heart,breaking my world

Its demolishing everything that I am.

They try to tell me the way I should be..

They attempt to show me what they see..

But its clear at their attempts of manipulating me.

I'm told I'm their pride and joy,

Being lied to that I'm everything

"Darling,you're an angel."

It makes me sick how they can't speak the truth

I know all too well,how they despise me so

How they want me dead..how they wish I'd just go.

So here I am..alone.Out in the graveyard..

The sirens screaming..my parents faking their discontent.

I hide behind a tomb..bleeding my grief..

They finally find me..my parents deceiving me again,

Saying,"Honey,come over here,please."

No.No longer will I be their fool

I won't be tricked this time,I can't take it anymore.

They begin to close in around me..but I fade away

I slip to the darkness,cloaked by the city shadows

I rest in a damp alley,exhausted from the day.

Gazing at the stars...weariness seizes my will to stay awake.

I wake up to an abrupt shaking..finding myself in their arms

"Don't worry dear..we don't mean any harm."

Oh but they do..that and everything else they can do to get me out the door... 

And  I'm afraid theres nothing I can do about it anymore..

I wrote this about a time when my parents (mom and step-dad) had been fighting..speaking of divorce and mom of suicide..so I ran away to the graveyard and hid there..and later ran off downtown...