what youve done to me

emptiness fills my chest, slow...take long deep breaths, nothing matters it seems, from the day that i seen you wanted nothing more from me, that you prefered someone elses company, it cuts deep, its cold and i cant sleep, im weak and i cant eat, im hot and i dont want to talk, leave me alone im busy cant you see, but then im alone in the dark and my heart bleeds, i wish i could restart, maybe i couldve made you happy, i couldve done things differenty, even though you were never really that good to me, my love for you remains as deep as the sea, im pitiful...its what youve done to me, id like to end it all but i would never take it that far, to many people look to me, i was a first born seed you see, i have a brother and sister whos heart would bleed, my mother would give up and cease to believe, im sure she would wish no longer to breath, life has no more meaning to me, fucking god please, take my life end it tonight, in a way that will cause a light to shine from within them, warm and bright a heavenly delight, they can no longer continue the fight, selfish it would be, to give up on life for me, this...is what youve done to me, my mind spins so fast constantly disecting the past forgeting to breath, the numbness that follows matches the depths and the hollows of my chest and it swallows my heart completely from the start, consumes my whole being, do I keep on going no longer believing in love like that which you recieve from above, maybe Im asking too much, I will continue to breath, youve got my heart and I dont want it back, lets just leave it at that,  this...is what youve done to me