Here I am

Here I am.

Can’t you see?

My heart is still in this till the end.

All I can ever feel is me.

Yet every day I reach for you.

Praying, begging for this to end.

And so I said a few things.

That I wish I never said.

All of this keeps playing through my head.

I remember our childish dreams.

Where everything was what we seemed.

For my brothers I write this out

Because you are too far away to hear my shout.

And if you did and did not care.

I know no one else to share the blame.

I wish we could all just laugh again.

I wish we were all so happy now.

But as our pasts catch up to us.

Do you remember how we destroyed each others trust.

I remember how I snapped.

And took my pain out on each of you.

Too afraid and scared,

To see my pain mirrored.

So now I pray for all of us to be alright.

And what I wouldn’t give to make it all right.

But All I can feel is me..

Oh please oh please say you miss me.

And not that you don’t care.

Cause I miss you all so much.

Feel our blood coursing through our veins.

Or is that just me..

Wishing my heart could feel you all again.

I miss my brothers.

All of us from the same mother.

All of us so grown.

All of us feeling alone.

Hurt and scared.

Mirrored through our all shared

Memories

Oh memories.

Oh here I am..

Please, see…

See me here reaching out to thee..