Screaming

As the day grows old

And the beat plays through my head

I can't focus on it

I calm myself instead

my dry cracks on my skin

where I let the water in

where it flowed away

feelings so raw and gray

tired of trying

for another day

for a different life

for a different way

curling my hands

wanting to scream

don't want to bother anyone

its blinding me

this anger inside

nowhere to hide

camouflaging myself

wanting to die

Just let me leave

never look back

always look forward

never suffer to lack

the things so neccesary

give me some air

you're choking me

i want to tear

my insides away

try something new

fading away

loving you