What's Left to Lose?

The days fly by
Without me noticing
Everything’s changing
But everything seems
The same.

Since you came into my life
Things had been looking up.
And now that you’re gone
My head is empty of
Everything.

The world is spinning, twisting, turning
But I am standing still.
I knew it had to end someday
But I didn’t know the day would come
So soon.

So much is happening all at once
And I can’t handle it anymore.
I promise myself never to trust
You again, never to put my faith
In you once more.

I hate the saying that no one
Ever said that life was fair.
Why can’t it be fair? I wonder
And wish that you at least
Had stayed.

Maybe if you had stayed
I could have handled everything else.
My mother dying, my sister’s cancer,
All the overwhelming things that press
Me down.

But if you come back, don’t expect
A happy and warm welcome
You left me once, you can do it again
And I can’t and won’t forget that
This time.

Can anything get worse? Is there
Anything left to lose? I’m trying
And trying to hold on but I’m
Being pushed down by everything
I never thought would end.