she died and i was there

trying to focus off the pain i sit in this puddle of tears all the memories in my head and i can still taste the fear this life doesnt make sense it doesnt go the way we planned the moment that he saw her face he just wanted to hold her hand he didnt want to say goodbye but something that he had to do tears started to fill my eyes when i heard him say i love you i wish i could drown the tears but he looked so torn inside a part of him was missing why did she have to die. i tried to say god needed her it's not your fault for this he shook his head in pain you dont know how this is you dont know how i feel or anything im feeling now i wish i was with her forever i layed my head and saw a frown i tired to tell him one thing everybody dies someday it's not fair but we have to deal with it it may cause wounds and tares but we cant give up on life today for a life that we lost yesterday we have to remember the good times and foreget all the bad we have to stay strong and try to be glade i say this because i love you i lost my grandma as well as you she may not have died that same way but all the pain,tears are the same as you you can say i wrong or stupid for thinking i know who you are but i know deep inside a person you love broke your heart im trying to fix it for you but you wont let me today no matter how long it takes i dont want your smile to fade away i love you baby forever