So Much

Standing there as the rain falls down

Feeling as if I'm about to drown

Thinking of the people who hate me for what I've never done

Feeling as if my heart weighed a ton

Loving all the people I've ever loved

Hating the people who said it was lust

Wishing my life didn't have to end

Knowing, unhappily, still, that it must

Crying as the rain washes my face

Wishing I could simply drift into space

Thinking of the one person I could never erase

Because, for all my love, he was the base

Sobbing as I pick up the knife

Gasping as I put it in place

Dieing as it plunges into my heart

 Flying as I go to another place