oblivion.

i think i knew what would come of it.

knew it all.

the pain i would feel.

the sorrow.

the want.

the regret.

about 2 seconds before i asked.

but i remained in oblivion.

oblivious to the truth i knew.

i was so stupid, happy, and numb.

my oblivion has vanished.

i think i prefered it to this reality.

this sudden, exposing, well-known reality.

i want to twirl away into my ignorance.

twirl away,

into my sickly sweet fakeness.

and never come back.

i wish that it was all wonderful again.