Thoughts

Walk into a room, happy as can be,

look around at all the smiling faces,

suddenly it hits, and you feel very sick,

bringing you to the ground crippling,

the emotions every one is hiding,

sinking slowly down down down

why do they not begin to frown

finding strength to lift my voice

ask them why they hurt so bad

how come it is only i

who feels the ice in their smile

help me to be free from what is theres

why do i take it upon my shoulders

i have my own that i have forgotten

but mine has no meaning or weight

compared to the amount from so many

every pain surrounds them still

holds them in place and puts me downhill

why do you hurt

why do you cry

please answer me

why do you stay silent

why look away

whats wrong with me no one will talk

i already feel you, for you, so let me understand

please please open your mouth and enlighten me

how could you keep the knowledge but not the hurt

whats wrong with me if you can't look in my eyes

what do you see in me?

Do my eyes scare you?

Do you feel the pain I feel?

Do you see a future of greatness?

Do you see my many failures?

Am I bringing you pain, or holding yours away

can I be of help or am I just causing harm

could I help you to see what I can feel

could I change something and do any good

could i make up for everything i have done wrong

Is this a gift or a curse

to know the feelings from all

theres only two ways too see for me

i can devote my being to the only thing i know

or i can fall into the hole and leave the space

someone else can fill my space

why should i let it go to waste

someone else can do it better

heal the world and leave me gone

i just prevent such good from being

why be something i am not

i do not want to be evil

but i am not good either

I'm always in between

so where does that put me?