Daddy...im dead

I move my lips but no sound comes out
I try to reach out my hands to you..but they dont move
All i can hear is your pain...your suffering...
I try to push myself out of the darkness....
But it just keeps pushing me down further and further...
I use up all my strenth just to struggle for my next breath...
I hear you saying how can this happen over and over again
I feel you hugging me ever so gently...
I feel your tear drops fall on my face....
I struggle but a manage to open my eyes and look at you...
I try to smile...hoping you see the gesture...
I whimper as the pain is so overwelming and feel tears fall...
I try so hard to keep my eyes open and keep watching you...
and once again i try to move my lips to speak to u...
My voice weak and as tiny as a whisper barely audible...
I pray that u hear it...."Daddy..I...love...you...."
I wonder if you'd give me a response...
but all i here is the tearing sobs...
I lay there wondering...Do u love me too?
I cant catch my breath...the darkness grabs my neck..
my eyes start to shut without my approval....
i hear you cry out " No god please no..."
I start to gasp for my breath praying for just one more...
I take my final breaths as I speak in a soft tone...
"Daddy....i really do....do love you...."
and with a few breaths left in me I look at you...
i show fear and pain as i struggle in my eyes...
on last time...I wish you could smile for me...
So i would have a good memory...but alas...
You show only more fear and pain too..
and then.....my eyes close for the last time...
my breath doesnt return...and my heart stops its rythem..
even tho i'm dead...i can still hear your sobs...
I hear them grow louder and feel you grab my hand...
but as I turn...i still wonder....Do you...love me to daddy?
I leave...but I faintly here you speak....
"I...i love you too honey...I love you too..."
I didnt hear u speak....you never let me know you loved me
did u ever?