my life

today i sat down and cried
looking at the past few years,

wondering when the next beating will come
or when the next attack will hit,

8 years of hell
thats what i was put through

a corrupt judge let her do it
he belived every word she spoke

beatings and blood
bruises and bumps

all claimed to be self inflicted
not a word she said was true

brainwashed by her
not a soul believed me

several times she believed she had me
every time she was wrong

she never knew
i was smarter than her

that one day i would be free,
free from her hellish grip

everyone not brainwashed pushed away
literaly weeks of no sleep

in pain and confused i searched for help
all they could do was not enough

moving constantly so she could stay free
i lost friends and loved ones

she was determind to kill me
slowly and painfully

for any person, child or adult, who this has happend to
i feel sorrow and pain with you,

i know how it feels
to be looking for the next stick,
the next broom, the next frying pan,
constantly watching your back, watching and waiting
hoping it will end. for those of u it hasnt ended
dont be afrain to seek help,
but keep in mind that not everyone can or will help

i wish these things hadn't happened
but sadly they have

but now i get the chance to help all those kids
all the ones who have suffered like me