faded embers

finding reason within my heart,
give it all,
and rip me apart,
cry so loud,
the angels can hear,
break my heart,
its you who i fear,
and you dont know,
because you wernt here,

you wernt here,
not today,
you wernt there,
yesterday,
you cant be,
and i understand,
but what the hell happend,
to your great big plan,

i felt you in me,
it rattled my cage,
i smelt the death,
of satans rage,
you cant see me,
but im loud and clear,
you cant feel me,
but im always near,
im a fallen angel
drowned in tears.

im cring harder
im fading at last
and the faded embers
have went out to fast
ive got the courage to remove the mask,
all i wanted
was to be in the back
youve put me in
the front line of war,
and its because of you
i dont believe any more....

kitty vandergrift