And I cry

Tonight I cry

And everything starts over

It feels like years have passed

And I thought I was healed

But no it isn’t so

I am craving once more

For love and hugs, nothing more

And I pray to God to help.

I cry because I am scared

Scared that I will fall again

In this abyss in which I had been trapped

I cry because I am desperate

Because I am all alone

Because I have never been loved

Because even my friends ignore who I am

And I pray to God to help me

And I know he is there

But it is not enough.

And I cry because I am weak and small

And I don’t want to grow up

And I wish someone could save my life

And I wish it were a song

But no it isn’t so.

As I lie here in my bed no one knows what I’m doing. No one knows that my poem is broken because my life is. No one knows that beneath my perpetual smile I am in pain. And know one cares. Because today we are alone in this world and it is hard to find someone who will listen to you. And it’s even harder when you’re different, when at heart you’re a child and a witch and an artist, and no one understands artists.

And I cry because I realize

I can’t go on like this

But as my pen fills a page

I grow stronger

Because I know that I cried tonight

But tomorrow I won’t.

Earindle

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