the perfect lie

i seem like the perfect girl;

always happy, giving rather then

taking, loving, perfect family, and

fairly pretty. but underneath all

these lies and deseptions is a

broken family who doesn't care ,

a burden to my family, and my

broken empty heart. i lead the

perfect life it seems but underneath

my mask, my eyes are dark and

cloudy, and i'm nothing but miserable

i cry myself to sleep everynight,

i cut my wrists to see if i

still can feel, but i never can feel it.

i've been told i was a mistake,

amd although i pretend that i don't

care i really do. i always have. i

know i have it better then most but

i hate disappointing people, and i know

that i'm just one big disappointment.

i wish i were dead. it would make

life so much easier on so many people.

underneath my perfect smile and happy

face is a dark expression full of

depressipon. the only thing that has kept

me alive for so long are my two brothers

and sister. i know they would be devastated

and i'm the only person they could ever

count on and i don't want to leave

them alone. so i'll stay alive for now until

i'm no longer needed or i can't take

being a burden anymore.