Drown in My Sorrow

I'm here to drown in my thoughts alone,
Trying to figure out how my heart got so cold.
And I think I got it, I've been hurt too many times,
But it seems to burn 10 times worse each time.
I can't even write a good enough poem anymore,
Cause all I want to do is break down on the floor.
Let the tears drown me so I don't feel no more,
Suffocate my insides just to make sure,
That I'm not gonna feel pain in my heart no more.
Just about ready to quit, even though I wanna find love,
But I'm sick of dying inside so I don't know what the fuck I want.
I'm blank right now, don't know what I'm doing here,
Hear no sound but my brain and my heart screaming it's fears.
How it doesn't want to get hurt again, so it's crying,
And it pains me to see it slowly painfully dying.
Wish there was something that I could do,
But what's done is done, and both of us are confused.
And it's true, misery loves company, especially mine,
Cause lately, I've been having a lotta misery in my mind.
But I've grown to hide it, do real good at it too,
Cause everyday I'm with my friends, and they don't see through,
The fake smile on my face and the pain in my eyes,
But if they see me today, they'll be able to see the lies.
Cause it ain't been good, and I'm lost in my head,
Just feel like screaming and passing out on my bed.
Where there's no one to worry, hurt or destroy me,
And no one to hurry, work or toy with me.
Just want to be left alone to drown in my sorrow,
Maybe the pain of my life will be gone by tomorrow.