how could you

how could you?

you said you was a friend

someone i could trust

its hard to yell at you

i wish i could

jus stop being ur friend.

but it harder then that.

ur not the one

who did this to me.

who messed with the one i love

put part of you did.

i will hate that part forever.

she did this to me.

made my hole in my heart bigger

the pain grew

and i cant let it go.

i will always hold it

inside of me.

i know ur sorry

for what saber did.

how she hurt me.

but she is part of you.

you could have controled her!

i trusted you

all of you

now there is one

insideyou

the i wish dead.

i know what she did.

every last thing.

and just the fact

of knowing it

makes it worse.

i trusted all of yo

to not hurt me.

 and you did.

 you know i cant let any pain out

an yet she made more.

so one day ill pop.

ill go crazy.

im feel myself falling apart now.

one day

ill shut down all together

and talking wont help me now.

i helped you in ur bad tmes

an all you do is

brake my soul to tinny bits

but i cant hate you

not all of you

but i dont now if

i can trust you

you are my blood sister

my best friend

forever.

but that one part of you

that did this

made me cry

more then just every night

but everydayas well

she hurt me.

you cant change that.

no one can

and then he let it go on for so long

and he dont  know

whats comming to him now.

he hurt me just as much as you did.

i may not be able

to  hurt her because shes part of you

but i can get him back.

he hurt me deep down. 

i thought he loved me.

he still says he does.

i cant say the 3 words back to him

thanks to you.

and now i just hurt.

there aint even numbness to cover it up anymore!

thak you friend.

thank you for making the pain grow.