What is pain?

What is pain? Feeling inside that won’t sub-side hate hurting and loss of all pride. When god is gone no longer your guide. What to do when pain is all you have? When you cry for days at a time and nothing feels the same when all you want is your life to end and you feel like pain is ya only friend. You try to let go but it goes back to pain is all you know. Bullshit is ya day to day and seems like life never goes ya way. So all you have is hurt and hurt truly makes you feel worst then dirt. What is hurt it’s brought by pain in life sometimes the shit feels the same. Different things cause this shit no matter what u try u can’t help but cry and wonder why ya life had to be this way. You pray day today, but the pain never seems to go away.