All Because of You

I need to look into myself,
To find my inner being,
But I’m scared to look too closely,
For fear of what I am,
I’ve killed too many souls,
To deserve a sense of peace,
I’ve broken too many spirits,
To feel serenity,
With ever life I take,
My demons gain more power,
I know that to kill again,
Will ensure my own demise,
But I can’t control the urges,
To tear at gaping wounds,
I see them lying at my feet,
Begging me for mercy,
But there is no mercy within my heart,
No compassion in my soul,
I’m just an empty heartless being,
Fighting for control,
So I slowly tear them down,
Piece my little piece,
The aftermath excites me,
Their screams echoing in my ears,
The remnants of their fallen tears,
So like those that once poured from me,
They bring humanity back to me,
Force visions from my past,
I dropt to my knees as the tears rain down,
Praying to the heavens to end this misery,
Millions of questions flash through my mind,
But none of which have answers,
The sobs subside as I look to the sky,
As if it will reveal the answers,
But I know it won’t so I slowly stand,
And farce myself to look upon,
The face of the innocent I destroyed,
I gaze at my bloodstained hands,
Knowing no amount of scrubbing will cleanse them,
I know not why I do this,
Yet know I am powerless to stop,
I tell myself I’ve lost control,
But is that really true,
Maybe this is who I am,
All because of you.