i did it again.....

i did it again, i hurt myself again today, and with no thought, i am lost, i need a friend,
i feel so small,trying to wipe away the tears, trying to errase yesterday,
fallen to my knees, i beg you, please help me up, i need a hand, i need direction,
i hope its not too late, broken and torn, i try to stand, yet i fall back onto the floor.

the pain raises inside me like the sunrise, the pain is so deep, thought is getting hazzy
again, please comfort me, hold me in your arms, i feel so helpless, singing to my soul
in the cemetary, with a crow laying on my shoulder, my weakness is love, yet im so afraid,
it is taking over me again, o please someone help me off the ground, i feel so small!

bleeding and out of control, this is reality, i shiver so badly, with anguish, i look to
the sky and wish for someone to help me and give me direction, god please, why do i hurt?
why can't i be normal, why can't i just smile, why can't i just walk throught this world,
and feel no pain, it hurts so badly, i think i might hurt myself, again!
Nikki Green 10-27-07