my dream

when i close my eyes i see something, its my dream. im loving you, your holding her, shes holding you too. i pretend like im over it but inside i feel like shit. I go home and fake a smile...i fake my happiness so no one can tell. then i go upstairs and lock the door. i cut myself. i love the pain but i feel insane. i dont wanna do this, i no its not right. i wanna wake up from this nightmare. So i close my eyes, i close them tight but when i open them i scream because it all is not a dream......its true..its my life.