~BEAUTIFUL MESS~

AS I LOOK OUT MY WINDOW,TO NOTHING AT ALL,AT THIS MOMENT IN TIME,I FEEL SO SMALL.RAINDROPS FALL ON THE WINDOW PANE,AS MY MIND TURNS AND TURNS.........AM I GOING INSANE??.MY THOUGHTS ARE RACING ,BUT SEVERAL THINGS ARE CLEAR.....I WANT YOU,I MISS YOU,I NEED YOU NEAR.

THE SILENCE IS SO LOUD,I CAN HEAR MY HEART BEATING,MY BRAIN SEEMS TORN,IT FEELS AS IF ITS BLEEDING.EVERY MOMENT YOUR AWAY,EVERYTIME YOU GO,YOUR ALL I NEED,AND I JUST WANTED YOU TO KNOW.

SUDDENLY LONLINESS SCARES ME TO DEATH,MY NERVES ARE UNEASY,AND I'M OUT OF BREATH.SHOULD I SCREAM?....OR KEEP IT INSIDE?,SUCH EMOTION LIKE THIS,IS HARD TO HIDE.

I WANT TO LAUGH,I WANT TO CRY,I NEED YOU SO MUCH,I MAY NEVER KNOW WHY.AS I THINK OF THE MAN THAT YOU NEED ME TO BE,MY EYES DRY UP,AND NOW I CAN SEE,THE MAN THAT YOU MAKE ME IN YOUR OWN SPECIAL WAY,WITHOUT YOU HERE WITH ME,IS TO WITHER AWAY.

AS I LAY DOWN TO TRY AND SLEEP,TO MYSELF I CONFESS,THAT I FIND ME IN THE MIDDLE,OF A BEAUTIFUL MESS:-)