letter from a vampire

vampire *that's the title*

dear you,

the words i write are painfully true.

as you read this letter tonight,

it is your flesh that i will resist to bite.

your blood is pulsing through my ears,

but killing you is my biggest fear.

i must close my eyes and walk away.

i wish you wouldn't follow me, i wish you would stay.

because i can only fight this urge for so long.

i'm weak, undeniably not strong.

and it takes all of my energy to concentrate on the words, and not the sweetness underneath.

the liquid that boils - deep beneath.

i'm disgusted with myself for thinking this.

revulsion at myself reeks through my being as you pull me in for a kiss.

and as i succeed at guiding my lips to yours,

i feel our hearts stop beating - we're each other's cure.

but i hate that i can't just want you in one way.

i seek your love, and your blood, and your heart, if i may.

i wish you'd understand that we just can't be.

but even i know that you complete me.

being without each other would kill us both.

i can't live without you, just so you know.

but the ache in my veins won't cease.

and when we're together, the throb in my heart will only increase.

i tear y gaze away from your neck.

the hatred i feel for myself runs thick.

but as your eyes catch my gaze,

all of my thoughts turn ablaze.

you smile, and my heart skips.

but i've got to get a hold of myself - it could be deadly if my secret slips.

or maye it would be better to have you know.

then you could leave if you wanted to go.

but maybe, just maybe, you'd want to stay.

become one of the night, and forever leave the day.

i imagine you standing by my side.

you'd be my honor and my pride.

i imagine it would be nice

to feel our hands clasped in our grasp of ice.

but i quickly kill that fantasy.

wanting you all for myself - how selfish of me.

i walk out into the silent moonlight.

and you trail behind me - never leaving my sight.

you grab my hand and look me in the eyes.

myself - i despise.

you nod and give me a faint smile.

in my mouth, i taste bile.

how could you be so willing? how could you know what i am?

from the deepest pit of hell - i've been damned.

but you just turn your neck towards me.

i see the blue lines of your veins - calling to me.

i ask you with my eyes all the questions i had.

i wondered to myself why wasn't i mad?

it was because i knew

you wanted me to.

so i did.

the memory - anything but morbid.

your sweet blood filled my senses.

and you dropped all of your fences.

we took each other's thoughts, blood, and love.

then we looked to the sky above.

joined in holy matrimony,

i couldn't wait to start the rest of eternity.

i love you, you see?

love, me.