story scars

no need to wonder

how people always seem to know

why i always feel so sad

even though i try hard not to let it show

the cuts on my body are a bit

not even equal to the start

of the honest sadness story

told in the scars on my heart

there's on for every painful moment

one for every lasting ache

one for every time i really thought

my heart was gonna break

there's a painful deep one

for the cut on B's chest

it took all i had

all i had my very best

also a stinging gouge for

all the new marks on ambers arm

the ones that seemed aimed at me

not to ask but to harm

another for the wording

on james's scarred skin

try hard as i might

against those tears i couldn't win

an equal for the fresh marks

on audra's shaky ashen arms

stitch cuts may be beautiful

but to me on her they lost their charm

there's a blinding slash for shawn

and the way he was taken from me

againg now thaty scar is still

the deepest one i see

these four are the hardest

hurt for my five best friends

i don't like to talk about it

i don't like the message it sends

these scars know i've been through a lot

and that i'll always care

they tell how invincible i'm not

and how much pain i bear

most of the pain i can't share

is hidden in my past

i know from expirience that

happy moments never last

so i lie my way throught the day

firing off some witty retort

hoping you won't realize the way

im suddenly selling myself short

i want you four/five to have better

i know one day you'll be more than i'll ever do

so i leave now with the fact

that it's whats best with you