confusion

The screach is restraining me

from yelling so you hear

I want to blast my loudest scream

but my heart won't let me

I would run a million miles

and you would still be there.

I want you to leave

but I want you here more.

I would swim across the ocean

only to meet you half way

doing the same

to get away from me.

I want to climb the mountain

and scream your name from the top

but I can't, my heart won't let me

I really would you know.

I was always scared.

that you would be there.

everywhere that I was.

knowing that your gone, I wish you were there.

I can finally leave the house

without being overcome with paranioa

I don't want to be hurt

but I can't help my heart from crumbling.

tired of this dreaming

and tired of this screaming

I'm tired of the constant ringing

of your voice in my ears

you called me today.

my heart flew out my chest,

when I saw the name on the screen

and everything came back.

and my head hurts from this thinking

and my heart stopped from this breaking

and my stomach burns from turning

save me now.

I HATE YOU!

I screamed.

I launched the phone to the wall

and it rang.

I flashed beside it

answered it.

before hello I began to sob

I had been waiting for this for too long.

I still love you.