Curses

My mind in a haze.

Thought at first it was a simple phase.

Now, though, it is certainly desired,

And it became something that was required.

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Was unworriedly addicted,

But now feel mostly afflicted.

Wishing for this curse to halt,

And not always feel like everything's always my fault.

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One wish is all I own,

And this some people have, so I'm not alone.

To never have been pained,

And not always just be disdained.

To be looked in these eyes,

And not only be told lies.

The curses to stop and vanish,

And for my life to no longer make me feel so banished.

For once a dream to come true,

And to actually feel like most people do.