Gray Blur

I cant seem to look at anyone
all i see is a blur
and it's all because of him
because he slept with her

I cried myself to sleep for months
thinking about what i did so wrong
to have him treat me the way he diud
and why he did it for so long

How do i get passed this
when i was with him for two years
how can i move on with someone else
when i have so many fears

He played me for a fool
yet i know that i still love him
but i know one day this torch i hold
will grow ever so dim

Until that day comes
I will see the world in gray
never show my true emotion
and put a fake smile on each day