My Personal Obstruction

I wake each morning to the warmth of the sun

Dreading the new day that has just begun

Reliving a nightmare that reveals all my fears

Trying to hide my emotions and not break down in tears

I lift the covers over my head, in hope to find refuge

Only to have my alarm clock go off, but I do not argue

Maybe I will get lucky and the sun will just implode

Leaving me to sleep in my eternal dream mode

Away from all the anguish, agony, and hate

Maybe I could just skip school or at least be late

But like the good girl I am I get out of bed

Dark menacing thoughts running through my head

But I am calm and I am quite as I walk down the halls

Studying the faces of my peers wondering how they do it at all

Laughing and talking as if it were the best day of their life

While I watch from the shadows, wallowing in strife

But this is who I am and I do not care what you say

And I have come to a conclusion, I will not change in any way…