Infinite Turmoil

Confusion sweeps over me

A horrendous tidal wave of what I knew was to come

Never running from my fear just waiting anxiously for it to subside

Plunging farther into to depths of my subconscious mind

Grasping for the once so familiar memories

Bracing myself for the worst

Hold onto my diminutive sanity

Anguish of reliving this nightmare overwhelms me

Pushing me farther from the surface of my reality

Holding me under the raging sea of doubt

Just of the coast of my mere existence

Replacing all hope with despair

Suffocating

Knowing I am at mercy to my pain

Realizing life will never change...