Your presence comes near

your presence comes near

and i try to reach out

disregarding my fear

of what i might be without

im trying to do sumthing right

for once in my life

will this come out alright?

sumhow whatever i do

sumthin bad will come my way

like playin russian rouleigh

i spun the gun

pulled the trigger

just a blank

but blood still runs down my face

im still trying to get a higher rank

im still trying to be vigor

im still trying to get first place

i sleep to die

earase the silence

earase my life

my burning ahes

will blacken the day

a world of nothingness

has taken my life away

i've come to the realization

i'll never get a good rank

i'll never be vigor

i'll never get first place.

and as the ground covers me

a tear runs down your face

this is what u've wanted from me

to leave you alone

if only u would've know

and as the roses fall

by people who never knew me

you could finally recall

the depression that i tried to hide

and my fake pride

the smile that hid my fear

and that one single tear.

that fell down my ckeek

and to the ground

making no sound

love i did seek

all i wanted was a higher rank

like i wanted u

it rains and u put ur hood on

u walk off wishing

i was still there

but now im gone

and no one else cares.