In the Eyes of Our Children

You said you loved me....I loved you too

And despite everything I said...I wanted you

So what happened to make us like this

And look at the lives of our children we missed

You refuse to see it, but its as clear as day

Our first born graduates in the month of May.

She has no desire to stay around here

because she's tired of the ongoing fights and fears

Do you even realize, we hurt her the most out of four.

For everytime she heard us fighting and screaming through the door.

And do you know where she was?

She was on the floor wondering why

she couldn't let go of the pain; just let it fly.

She sometimes sat on the opposite side of the door

feeling like a lost child on that cold barren floor

She'd sit there and listen until she couldn't take anymore.

She'd put on her shoes and head out the door

because this was something she couldn't take anymore.

She'd begin to walk up the street and she'd sit on a corner

feeling like a little lost foreigner.

She'd watch every car go by

as she sat continuing to cry,

And at other times wanting to jump in front of them and die.

She'd pull herself up and start to run

looking at the ever fading sun.

She'd come back saddened

because she can remember everything that's happened.

She'd turn off the light

and pray through the night.

For all she wanted was what is right

and yet, we continue to fight.

Well our record doesn't end there,

for none of us even bothered to care.

We began to fight in plain sight

and our children cried those many nights.

The two youngest blamed our oldest for our fight,

yet we continue to fight over many things.

The next oldest sees everything as your fault

and shows his pain through violent assults.

Yet we continue to balme them

over, and over, and over again.

We really must figure out how to make this all end.

And I see you're angry when I protect my son.

For he is wrong, but in a way so is everyone.

We continue to stay together

in the hopes of making our oldest feel better.

In fact we've helped her gain

an enormous amount of pain.

You said you hated me...I said it too.

So let's just face it

our relationship is through.

Things may get better if we grew apart

instead of trying to mend this broken heart.

Our children would get better and things would be fine.

It would just take some time.

This is the best thing we could ever do

after everything we've put our children through.

Our oldest will finally let go of the past,

But if we don't do this soon seeing her this summer may be our last.

So this is what I think is the right thing to do

after realizing what I meant to you.

We should have considered more before saying I do

because let's face it; our relationship is no longer true.

We should have considered staying together

after all it seems feelings don't last forever