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I have found myself

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A darkness vast and ever consuming

Sentient shadows striking chords

Chaotic

Subtle sadistic simplified serenity

Providing orgasmic pleasure in the guise of pain

Such wicked benevolence

Envelope me please

In a chrysalis of exotic nothingness

The warmth of the abyss

Enticing

Beckoning

Summoning me back to the fold

The pack in which I’ve always been accepted

Callous, primal, distant, cold

Yes yes yes yes

I am going home

They know me well here

Known as

A Detached, Odd, Undesirable, Gloomy, Lost, Abhorrent Soul

The homeward journey nearing its conclusion

Neural sensation dulling

The hindering emotions peel away like a lass with a fair epidermis three days after her overstayed reprieve under the astral life giver

 

 

Emotion lost

Pain lost

A fair trade by any means

I’ll never know true love in either direction

However I’ll know not pain either

One can’t be hurt if they cannot feel

 

 

To plagiarize a bit, there are miles to go before I sleep

Yet I can see my place of rest

The tangible appendages of the void reaching out

 

 

Reaching

 

 

Reaching

 

 

It is that cold empty sensation that provides me warmth

I desire it

I need it

I love it

As it loves me

For I am most alive when bereft of emotion

 

 

Liberating myself from the feeling that bind

I stand before the event horizon

My port of call

Home

The ever-consuming darkness takes me in

Floating aimlessly in a charcoaled atmosphere of the abyss

Painful placidity providing pleasure

Stripped of emotion

I am once again whole

 

 

 

 

Douglas S. Williams

 

 

 

 

 

 
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On June 18th 2008 speederspider Said :
speederspider oh wow. I like it because it seems to speak of loss of hope or empowerment in individualism or loneliness. It's so raw and yet so understandable. I love it!
On May 27th 2008 sixtiesdoll Said :
sixtiesdoll ~sigh~ this is the type of poetry that is fun for me to read. I love it lots.
On May 24th 2008 seekerovtruth Said :
seekerovtruth You ooze with talent! This took me back to a time of stuffing my emotions because they were too painful to deal with. Paradoxically this piece was a huge release of those deep seeded emotions. Awesome!
On May 22nd 2008 AlexINTJ Said :
AlexINTJ It was very chilling. I found I was done reading it before I even knew I started. This is amazing. I don't think I've seen anything better. Wow.
On May 16th 2008 lexiigurl345 Said :
lexiigurl345 this is freaking imazing!you have a gift i hope you use it
On May 16th 2008 gonzo4201 Said :
gonzo4201 Yes, very dark, but wonderfully done
On May 15th 2008 DeathMetalPunk Said :
DeathMetalPunk Morbid, but very good!
On May 14th 2008 drummajorpod Said :
drummajorpod It is dark, yet not in a bad way. Almost like a song with dissonance in it--the song is beautiful, yet the discord may make your eye twitch or something. I dunno. Anyway, it gave me chills. Great job!
On May 14th 2008 ladydamagegrel Said :
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nice. hope all gets better. you know were to reach me.
On May 13th 2008 kissofasia Said :
kissofasia wow,the words are so deep.You are so good.Deserve hundreds of comments too.wow
On May 13th 2008 Calypso32 Said :
Calypso32 All I can say is wow, excellent! You've mastered the metaphors in this poem! It is succint, it flows and it takes me to a darker place. you're words are powerful. Very well done!~MW
On May 13th 2008 goodgurl8504 Said :
goodgurl8504 It seemed kind of all over the place... But a very interesting piece, I like the attention to detail, using words to better express the words... It's like words come to life, which is always ever prevalent in your work... Nice job!
On May 13th 2008 KaosQueen Said :
KaosQueen
oh fkn GOSH GOSH GOSH THIS WAS AWESOME!
i love it! :D
On May 12th 2008 xHickChick789x Said :
xHickChick789x wow I'm left speechless. Nicely written... I love it! :) I don't know what else to say!
On May 12th 2008 mydragonlord Said :
mydragonlord Ooo Thugs, so dark and so sad. "I will lay to rest the grace in my tongue" to plagiarize a bit my self, this tells me of the people that know you well. I think that my significant other will be able to go deeper into this than i could. I felt a lot of loss here, emotional loss. this was really brilliantly written!!