Was It Always Like This?

Was it always like this?
Paino keys out of tune,
In a non-harmonic room.

I could of imagined
That everything made sense
Even after the flawless dents

I'm looking through stained glass
Into a bright image of the past
But its all fading away
You can't pretend forever
That your still living in yesterday
So with a rope so tight
I'll drag this boulder up hill
I'll make sure to never forget my pills

I get lost in my youth
Remember, "Twinkle, twinkle little star"
Yeah, well "I wonder where you are?"

Nothing easy is worth doing
It was the hardest part of growing up
But honestly, I'd like to blame you on luck

I'm falling asleep fast in old beds
I should of been out, having fun instead
But I forgot how, and where my friends lived
You can't live alone forever
You need to stop living in yesterday
So, I'll keep cleaning up my memories
Chop them up, until all thats left
Is what I thought was the best

So, how'd you like this song to end?
Say its alright? And it'll be a finale.
I could walk to the farthest town
Forget your face, and you'll forget my frown
The rain pounds, it pounds so loud
My words didn't make sense til I wrote them down

Was it always like this?
Piano keys, out of tune and a mess
And I, and I always out of tune?