Why is fate so cruel?

I have a tale of sorrow

My own tale of woe.

How can fate be so cruel to leave me all alone?

Each friend I had is gone..

Not to ending friendships but a solid blow.

Death took from me many of thee,

The ones I needed.

My friends always die before me!

I've lost too many to count anymore.

Graveyards and memorials of that I have many

They live in my heart and the shadows.

Waiting for me...

Then when you lose someone even more important than friends

Only then can you understand.

After all that I had more in the shadows than here.

It got so bad I died in a way and choices had to be made

Boundries to be set.

I was given a choice live here or there.

At the time I didn't think it important.

I didn't care for life and living anymore.

Thenthat special someone showed me he would wait

Saying I had so much more to do.

I thought he was lying, why?

Doesn't he want me there?

I came back and breathed

much to their relief not mine.

It took ages to come back and live

But boy am I glad I did.

2 Kids , a husband,friends...

All I wanted but had lost came back to me gradually

as I lived a little more each day.

Fate can be cruel and unfair

but the shoreline is scoured clean with each risng tide

taking all out of sight

Sand castles, shells ,footprints.

Leaving a new set of gifts on its recession.

I lost a world for a new one to begin

totally differant from before.