with zeit

my brain is like spaghetti,
& my heart is like confetti,
when dropped, they go all ways.
for the pain, my soul pays.
you have no idea how i feel,
but i guess that's for me to deal.
i’ll tell you one day soon,
trust me, that day cant come too soon.
hopefully, you’ll still feel the same,
but if you don't, i’ll have to bare the pain;
of having you so close, yet so far away.
maybe, by then, you’ll be close enough to stay.
just please, for both our sakes,
please do not go back to that snake.
she’ll pull you in & let you go,
so quick you wont even know.
or she’ll hold you tight, so you can breathe,
so tight you’ll be begging to leave.
it might be easy & it might not be,
but please don't go there & try & see.
just sit tight & wait & see,
to see what our fates will be.

but now there’s someone new,
& there’s nothing i can do.
i cant help who your heart desires,
i just wish i could put out the fire.
but i’ve waited far too long,
& now, you’re basically gone.
& the pain, that's for my heart to bare,
but who’s to say they care?
i’m trying to move on;
i’m dying to move on.
but how can i say good-bye
to something that was never really mine?
but i guess it just goes to show,
that the Good Lord above is truly in control.
as i said once before,
and as i’ll say many times more,
we’ll just have to wait and see,
to see what our fates will be.

-Susie